Hey RAWC Stars! I know it's been way too long but I'm here and I really hope that time will afford me the opportunity to blog more frequently going forward. I really do have alot on my heart to share with the blogosphere but life and so many other things have a tendency to take precedence. None the less, I'm here right now and I pray that you guys and gals have been doing well. I do have a very unfortunate update to report... remember my fish (RAWC-E?) Well my tough little Tetra succumbed to an overheated fish bowl a few months ago and it was truly a downer for sure :(. I mean I just thought my little guy was going to stick it out for the long haul but to tell the truth... I still think he fought the good fight of faith and maybe he's blowing fish bubbles somewhere in the heavens! Who knows! :)
Anyway, I just had a thought, well rather a song come across my mind as I was preparing to go into meditation to seek God's face about a few things concerning my life. Every once and a while I just get this desire to just up and relocate from the place I've called home all of my life. I just feel that there is so much of God's beautiful earth to see and partake of that it just doesn't make sense for me to stay in one place. However, I have to take so many other things into consideration including the best interest of my only son as well as other family members. Me and God have had this ongoing conversation and it goes a little something like this:
Me: God, can I leave Maryland now?
God: No, Joy...didn't you try this last year? Where to this time... California again? It's not time for you to leave yet.
Me: Well God... there's nothing here for me any more.
God: Joy, you're being impatient and you're not finished your assignment here just yet.
Me: But God, I'm doing everything I know to do in the natural, serving in ministry, using my gifts, talents and abilities to bring you glory... I'm just not understanding why I have to stay HERE and do this. Can't I just go somewhere else and serve you better?
God: Well Joy if you decide to leave before it is time, my grace shall cover you and protect you but you will miss out on the blessings that I have in store for you as a result of your disobedience. Remember that book you wrote "Content... Right Where I Am?"... maybe you need to go back and read it yourself huh?
Me: Funny Lord... you sure do have a sense of humor! What blessings? I've been single for way too long and I'm beginning to believe my "Boaz" is just NOT here God.. he's got to be somewhere else on this planet earth. Plus I could probably do so much more with my writing and music if I could just..(God just interrupted me... He's allowed to do that you know)
God: Trust in me with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding Joy. Acknowledge me and I will direct your paths (Proverbs 3:5.) Be anxious for nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to me Philippians 4:6.) Don't grow weary in well doing (in your ministry and in your endeavors) for in due season you're going to reap if you don't lose faith (Galatians 6:9.) Know that if you wait on me (be patient), I will renew your strength and you'll mount up like an eagle (Isaiah 40:31)... in your case my daughter, maybe a butterfly! (I smile at God) Delight yourself in me and my word and I will give you the desire of your heart (Psalm 37:4.) And finally, remember that I came to give you life more abundantly (John 10:10), peace that passes all understanding (Philippians 4:7) and joy unspeakable (I Peter 1:8.)
Me: Thank you God for the talk... you always know just what to say to encourage my soul... but if I get tired and just need to talk again can I call you?
God: Come to me if you are heavy laden or discouraged and I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28)and yes call on me and I will answer you and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know (Jeremiah 33:3.)
So there it is... my one to one, personal conversation with God. Not so deep right? Just real, honest and transparent. Most people think that they have to go to God with eloquent speech, fancy words and alot of "fake" stuff but that's simply not true. God knows our heart anyway so there is no better opportunity to be real than with God. Have you had your talk with God lately?
